I have this urge towards something which I found myself very determined in a way I could not tell in words. I just feel it and I know. But there are few minds out there which acknowledge my determination, have to go slightly against it. I never see myself being the subject of argumentation between the outer family. Being the one that judged with each of their own opinion. I never thought my eagerness may pour an ink on someone else's paper while I thought this only about mine's.
I have learnt from every occurrences throughout the days, not to be selfish in anytime. Now, from where I stand, I see me being selfish. There I also noticed between being determined and selfish left very thin line. If they think they would stop me now, I'd say they are a thousand hours late. I have reached the point where I have chose this path, and I am not going anywhere to change what I have decided. I have walked too far from the starting line. Not to mention, I barely remember where and how it started. Probably long ago, once in a fine day God just simply showed me His sign by pulling me in to series of coincidences, meeting people whom moved me and guide me to where I wanted to be.
I just need them to have their faith on me, because I do not need anyone to leave their doubt on me. In any possible form. I already had enough from myself during those hours of emptiness which usually stop by in a few chances. It might disappear rather quick if I have plenty of other's positivity on me. I would not ask much, a tap on my back or just a simple text, wishing me good luck and sincere support from the deepest part of their heart should be enough. Set aside the differences. Let's get together.
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