The Past

The Reason


There was a small local pub down the road, between a Chinese restaurant and a gift shop. It had been Aurora's favorite since the place opened three months ago. She was not sure why she loved the place. No, wait, she knew. One fine Friday night, she walked in to the pub from the cold winter air. The place was rather packed, considering it was weekend. Her eyes went directly to the bar, and within a moment she found the reason why she kept coming back. That guy who works behind the bar. There was something about him that made her curious. Waiting to place her order, she observed more and more. She was standing there, thinking, she could die happy right at that moment. She was not suicidal or anything, but that phrase explain quite well the condition of her heart. It was not yet explosive, but in her head, there was a very loud voice fighting for attention. He looked amazing. She shook her head; it was not helping. Everybody could tell with naked eyes, he owned this special appeal which very attractive. He was not that handsome, but he was for her. His hair was short, a little messy at the top, slightly covering his forehead. The color of his hair was dark, the kind of dark that was on the verge of brown and black, not as dark as ebony, though. His eyes were not fierce, more like the opposite. He had the kind of eyes that welcomes everyone with warmth. The shape of his lips were soft and thin, it almost looked vulnerable but it made the most genuine, tender and sweet smile and his cheek bones was the best part of his face as if God sculptured it with the attention to make everybody jealous. She would like to slip a note in his pocket, saying "You should know you are seriously beautiful."

Out of the blue, the drunk lady in front cut the cue -- whilst Aurora was not mind waiting for another minute, although she had been standing for quite a while whilst people passing by but she was perfectly fine, in the corner between the entrance to the counter, waiting to be served. There was another bartender carrying empty glasses behind the counter, finding she was still there since he left a while ago to clean the table. Throwing a glimpse of pity stare at her, he tap the other bartender that she had her eyes on and pointing back at Aurora. "She's been waiting." Quickly she straightened her body, as he immediately approached and apologies, "Oh, I'm sorry. What can I get you?" his hand stroke her hips as he leaned forward to her face, trying to listen closer because the music. There were tons of scenarios going on in her head; what words would sound better and how to arrange it in a sentence but all she came up was a smile. "Can I get, uh, a beer please." He was too perfect in her eyes it almost scares her. Her nerves work ten times more sensitive than usual. "A beer." he repeated. Then he poured down one,  and came back. She handed over five pound note, but then he said, "No. It's on the house, I've made you wait." it happened too fast. She was trying very hard to keep it cool, she was so close to drop her jaw in awe. "Thank you." She would like to run and scream, let the world know, for the entire minute she was happy. Very happy. Before she went back to her seat and drown in her emotion, he called her again, "Hey wait, what's your name?"
"Aurora. And you?"
"Phillip." Then her mind wander off to her favorite childhood fairytale, The Sleeping Beauty, when all she ever wanted was Prince Phillip.



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Take A Breath and Let the Rest Come Easy

End year conclusion:

Last year had been a constant hangover to me. I was not sure what was going on, yet all I could feel a headache. Not massive, but mild burnt inside my head. 2012 was the year where all the songs about doubt, heartbreak, confusion started to make sense. It was not just lyrics anymore, it had become part of my secret story telling. It was also the end of life as I know it; many thoughts this has a bad connotation, but I'd like to argue. To me, this just a new chapter with brand new challenges, probably with some twists, but still in the same magical plot.

There were things that did not go as I planned, or as I wanted. It was not an easy year, to be honest. Maybe you can tell through the lack of post, no? It was not always a downhill, I fancied few surprises that I did not see it coming. Little things. From a bag of bagel, or one Summer assignments that start it all. There are always things that worth it to save you from the darkest version of yourself, you know. The part where I finally could get along my disappointments, and made it through, was not all bad.

This new year's eve, I was standing underneath Big Ben until the last seconds of 2012 -- London Eye was just across the Westminster Bridge upon the amazing Thames River. There it goes, three of the best things in this world in one sentence. I would say, I was living the dream. Probably not just mine, but thousand of others. I would not waste it away with bitchin' about I did not have the entire street for myself, as I had to share with the other several hundred of people. BUT, I have never been so stoked to welcome a new year as I am right now. Looking forward for 2013. Pretty sure good things are waiting for me. Hence, I'm going to make it count. Wait, no. We're going to make it count

Boom.







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All I Want For Christmas is New Year's Day

All I want For Christmas is New Year's Day by Hurts
Yes, the only Christmas song that I can relate to.

Another Love by Tom Odell
This resembles the sound of everything that never could go wrong.

The One Thing by Luke Leighfield
I mean, who can deny you are the one thing that make sense? No one.


End of the Night by Tim Ferguson
Let's just go lay down on the grass and watch the sun set.


Happy listening, love.

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Sunlit Bronze

I could tell that he was afraid. I was not sure why. But I could tell he was afraid of something; as if the whole thing was a lie, as if his presence solely based on insecurities. We had our first encounter in front of the library, when he opened the door for me, that was when our eyes met for a whole long second. Followed with a brief yet genuine smile as it lighted up his face. Although it was very brief, the smile lit some colours on his pale skin against his sunlit bronze hair. But quickly, so quick I could not timed, his eyes drifted away from mine. It looked like he did not want me to see brush of his dark secret from the past that he hide beneath his full framed glasses. In a way, he seemed harmless because those soft and tiny wrinkles between his eyebrows implying his ongoing awareness upon everything. Everything but himself -- he had no single clue that he was capable to capture everybody's attention in the room without trying to. Even my best intention towards him was being misjudged into something, toxic. I could tell, his past has driven him far away from now; keeping distance with everything.

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Merry-Almost-Christmas!

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It's almost Christmas again. It's true, nothing, or nowhere, is as far as one minute ago. I thought winter had start, but I have heard the sphere officially aligned on this part of the world roughly on the 21st of December. That is to say, these extra layers of clothes may need additional support. Blimey. 2013 is around the corner. I have not even tick this year's resolution just yet. Oh, I have been easily amazed with beautiful people around me; little things. Brief meetings. As if I have all the reason in this world to love or to like, everything, everyone. That sweet entertaining yet inspirational video trip to Jogjakarta from Malesbanget.com hosted by Jebraw and Naya, made me realized what I have not been noticing when I was in Indonesia. That the almost-perfect-voice of Tim Ferguson I found through youtube, been accompanying me for nearly a week with his beautiful being every night and day. Even that charming English bartender in a local whiskey bar whom had been paying good attention to remember my order in two (un)consecutive days, stole half of my subjective appraisal on changing my favorite pub in town. I cannot say things have not been changed from the last Christmas, where I might claimed a mere depression of loneliness, there are few parts of my daily routines that somehow has changed. I was hurt for a solid ten seconds when I realised it happened; but I think it's just the time. You should keep in mind, if you have been through the worse, then from there nothing can get as worse; things can only get better from then on. Now, there are too many things before your eyes that are worth to love, to cherish, to appreciate - it's okay to like a lot of things, nobody gets to call you a slut for that! let loose the hatred, give love some space!!!!!!!!

Anyhow, Merry-almost-Christmas, you filthy animal! Keep your best friends safe. 

Feel free to click on those colored words, I have put a link that will lead you to another bit this cyber world have got to offer. Personal recommendation worth to check! x

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A Little Bit of Grey's



"Maybe I do believe it. All this 'meant to be' stuff. Why not believe it? I mean who doesn't want more romance in their lives? Maybe it's just up to us to make it happened; to show up and be meant for each other. At least that way you'll find out for sure, if you're meant to be,




or not."

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"It doesn't always have to be harps playing, birds singing or rose petals falling from the sky. There are definitely days where romance is dead, but if you look around things are pretty amazing. So, stop for a second, enjoy the beauty, feel the magic, drink it in, cause it wont last forever."

(Meredith Grey, 2012)
Episode 7 and 8, Season 9.

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Music Edition: Tim Ferguson


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"I'll never be the knot you want to tie.."
(End of the Night - Tim Ferguson)


It's funny how you stumble upon something randomly and there came the thought where you didn't particularly know you were looking for it but as soon it was in front of you, you'd say, "Where have you been?" That was the kind of feeling when I found Tim Ferguson. I found this amazing musician through youtube when I was on my way back from London to Bournemouth. In the midst of mundane two-hour coach journey home, I was scrolling through my tumblr's dashboard, then I found a Pop Punk Goes Acoustic video that my friend reblogged - this  instantly caught my attention because it listed most of the songs I grew up with. Honestly, I rarely bought anything through video; by all means I usually skipped video post on tumblr, but this time, I stopped and spare a couple minutes to watched. From that moment on, I could not stop listening.

There is something about his voice that drawn my attention immediately. He is so genuine; there is this sense of security flows when you listen to his songs. It is hard to elaborate more without sounding very cheesy and all but to be honest, it is that hard being objective for something this good. His kind of music hums some sort of hidden invitation to stay - as if you just find a new home. It welcomes and comforts you in the same time. You just want to lie down and relish every passing second and find yourself being at peace with the world. Too bad he lives far away in the States. I'd really like to see him live.

To have a brief sense of his music, in my opinion, it sounds like a mixture of NeverShoutNever with a little mild touch of Death Cab For Cutie calming-on-the-edge-of-darkness kind of tone. It is obvious, acoustic guitar suits his voice character very well. He has this unique bit, where he almost sounds like he dragged his deep voice yet he managed to pull it right. And also when he hit the high note, it fits the whole thing. His cover for I Can't Make You Love Me by Bon Iver assured me even more because not everyone is able to do justice on covering Bon Iver's song. I mean, he definitely can make anybody love him. However, if you don't fancy all calm and standstill tunes, you can still have the best of both world through his other band project, April Chase, where you can have louder beat, and not being less amazing than his solo. So, listen. He's too good to miss.




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