Uncertainty is one of the worst status in human life. Often worry emerged as the immediate result of uncertainty, where insecurities are starting to creep in like a cold weather on to your skin. Invisible but there; as if it has sharp edges, pinching for a grip of reality and screaming for warmth. But aren't we all live in uncertainty? It almost like the skeleton of life. So fragile it may break. It may actually break you. Or, uncertainty to life is like the series of dots in children's book -- the dots are the set of uncertainty and once you connect each of them with straight line, it shapes an existence, life. It's depressing and challenging in the same time. It is like one of the places where the opposite collides. A bloodbath between negative and positive thoughts for the ultimate (supposedly comfort) zone.
It is so mystical how things live side by side, life and uncertainty, so close yet very hard to get used to and still terrifying. There are times when it gets very strong. The kind of day when you say, "I have not never felt anything like this". Where you sit in your bed, under the duvet, watching the day turns into night, and cannot be bothered to turn on the lights even though the switch is just two steps away from where you are. Waiting, and waiting, in vain, for one single simple text message. That tiny bit of uncertainty; not knowing how the other person's doing. The worry. The bad thoughts, monsters in disguise. Changing your mind from a playground to a crime scene. During that kind of moment, I would say, have a little faith. But it hardly works during your worst. I know, I know. But then again, there is nothing else you can do to change the situation but to have a little faith (and find tons of distractions). Cause at the end, you will hear that everything is okay anyway.
Kisses,
Your petite friend.
