The Past

If Someone Ask Why Am I Still Awake, Tell Them It's Dougie's Fault.

I hope you all spare the mercy upon me during the hardest phase after seeing someone who have been waited for too long agenda. I kinda suck using this highly motivated technologies. I lost my bluetooth hardware while my laptop has not been supported with bluetooth connectivity. And I am currently on the ultimate urge of changing my background image on my deary blackberry. So I've got to post few of Doug's best pictures I have found somewhere between the sea of information, the internet. As I go on doing my best job in the middle of the night as a surfer. Surfing the internet, I stumble upon this video which shot in my home country, Indonesia. The last question blew me away. I should have not seen this. Though I knew the case. But still, it keeps me awake. Like forever.
It has been a while for me for able to feel this again. Been good & blessed!

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There are things that I'd like to keep still as a secret. And sometimes I'd chose to lie just for the sake of keeping everything undercover. Just sayin'

A piece by : Fiya Muiz

Galaxy Defenders Stay Forever

"It was rather sad than funny how something that had been planned for so long ends within a moment."
-Tom Fletcher.


A bit of preface, I knew McFly from Lindsay Lohan's movie called "Just My Luck". I did not catch them at the first time I watched the movie. But some day in 2004, I watched it again for the second time. My eyes caught this guy which only had one line in the movie. He was Dougie. Dougie Poynter, bassist from McFly. I was not quite sure why, I fell hard for this guy. I started to search his music, and I fell deeper. McFly easily became my favorite band. Different with any other band that I was currently listened to, McFly's songs went to the most played song on every media player I have. As if, they were the only exception for pop band; their music was rather boyband-ish but I unconditionally love them.
Then I made myspace because they have this official website where the fans can communicate to.
Not so long after, me and my best friend, Andra, started to make this novel inspired by McFly due to the intense feeling towards the band. That was the first Indonesian novel I have ever written. Two years later, we finally finished it for around more than 200 pages.
In 2005, the second year of junior high, I made the best decision from the best random thoughts ever. I made a band with the coolest girls I would like to keep for the rest of my life. I chose as a bassist; although I have zero experience related to bass. Guess why I chose bass? Yes. Because of Doug. As simple as that.
I could not imagine how sucks my life would be if I did not jump in to the that world. World where music as the president. I won't be like who I am now, with good people surrounding me, if I did not make a band.
April 2009, twitter barely launched in the cyber space. At first, it did not appeal to me since I was not quite sure about the purpose of it. But then, I made one because all of McFly members got their own personal twitter account. It makes everything easier and more simple using twitter as the media between fans and the artists.
From that moment on, I always been related to McFly.
though I fancy other bands, McFly is the only band I memorized all the lyrics. McFly also one of the reason I developed this deep and intimate relationship with United Kingdom and everything in it.
I'd say McFly came at the right time when I entered my teenage life, the first phase to live life based on my own choices.

The moment:

The news spread around two weeks in advance without sign of official message both from the promotor and band's management. The fans were left hanging by a thread. Few days later, there was another update from twitter telling the tickets were already on sale. I bought it on the second day. The moment when I bought the pre-sale ticket, I have not completely convinced I was about to see McFly live. I promised myself to focus my arse toward the national exams. So I did. The last two days of the national exams, twitter was flooded with McFly themselves telling they were about to leave London and heading to Jakarta. There, bits by bits I was starting to believe McFly is coming to town. I was ecstatic. April 21st, at the very last day of the exams, I heard McFly just arrived. I got more ecstatic. Literally. Still adapting myself with the shock McFly was currently in town, I went clueless what to do. I remember, Friday, rumor spread they were about to make appearance in one of local TV shows. It was true. I have been waiting in front of the telly for hours since early morning, then I heard McFly was called. One by one the band members showed up. There again, I cried. I saw Dougie, the reason of everything, right there on the television show, forty five minutes away driving here, in Jakarta. I was absolutely convinced more than ever, McFly is in Indonesia. My country. Where I was born. Soon I realized I have got to do something. I won't waste the chance that lies in front of my eyes.
I thank god for having the best best friends ever, the plan would not work 100% without Ryan and Andra.
Long story short, I met them face to face, hand to hand, you name it. I talked to them. Especially, I have told Dougie, he was the reason I played Bass and guess what, he seemed flattered. I've heard his voice, talking to me.
Once I was planning to go chase them to England and Australia for six years. None of the plan works though. But then, suddenly without any expectation, God has sets this plan, I do not need to chase them overseas, they come to me. Then I have seen them live. I was drowned among the songs I have been waiting for so long to sing along with them. They gave their best performance. I was completely satisfied. The best concert I have ever been so far.
The best day in my life.

If you ever heard someone says "I can't explain it in words" I've got to tell you, it's true. None of them were lies. It was something more than words. I feel like one of the American Idol contestant, and won the first place. It was like a dream come true. Or maybe it was something more than that.

A piece by : Fiya Muiz

Jakarta, Kick Arse!

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I'm going to make this simple and quick, I met the love of my life after six years of waiting.
Been wishing for this too long I almost cried.
Been looking forward to see them live for like forever.
Been loving the guy since the beginning I know how to love.
Been writing too many fictions based on them.
Been using his persona as the reason why I made a band.
If you know how much I adore them, I can tell you, it is something above and beyond that.
If you have read a line somewhere between the paragraph, describing someone who fall head over heels towards someone and want the whole world knows, for me,
I want the entire universe to know that I have just met,
And I am planning to love them for the rest of my life.

I'd say, don't give up on anything. Good thing comes to those who waits.
A piece by : Fiya Muiz

Sous Le Ciel de Angleterre

April been quite nice to me, though things did not show much of difference than the previous month or year, the urge to post new entry somehow abandoned due to the lack of variety of idea in mind. I have been busy with books and papers. And it may sound weird, but their usual habit pushing me off to the edge of hatred, had quietly gone. I think I have started a good relationship towards those books and papers. Nonetheless, the major thing I aimed for never left my mind nor my room. Painted in blue, red and white colors, it never missed to cheer me up during the most bore hour when battling with words to remember.
This just a brief post before the exams which going to be held tomorrow. Your blessing would be lovely.
I'll see you soon!

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A piece by : Fiya Muiz


Out of the night that covers me,
Black as the pit from pole to pole,
I thank whatever gods may be
For my unconquerable soul.

In the fell clutch of circumstance
I have not winced nor cried aloud.
Under the bludgeonings of chance
My head is bloody, but unbowed.

Beyond this place of wrath and tears
Looms but the Horror of the shade,
And yet the menace of the years
Finds and shall find me unafraid.

It matters not how strait the gate,
How charged with punishments the scroll,
I am the master of my fate:
I am the captain of my soul.

by William Ernest Henley

Beauty appear in various kind of forms. And this morning, I coincidentally found one beautiful poem. Invictus. Through the pronunciation itself already tells you there is something about it. As if the word breathe in the life on your eagerness to look out what it means. Invictus means undefeated or unconquerable. This is my favorite line, "I am the master of my fate: I am the captain of my soul." Oh dear lord, my blood goes tremble.
Aside this poem was written by one of British legendary, William Ernest Henley, this also known as the inspiration for Nelson Mandela to stand up from the struggle he suffered during his sentence in prison till it brought him up to be the president of South Africa and abolished the racism throughout the country. Some of his action fighting against the racism has been adapted into a movie called Invictus played by Morgan Freeman and Matt Damon. Go spare your time to watch it by the weekend, double inspiration. xx

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A piece by : Fiya Muiz

I Hang You Up and then I Pull You Down.

Hey April. Today is such a good day for writing. You should see the sky up out there. The cloud shaped exactly like on the drawing book; clear white as it shows a contrast against the soft blue sky. Though the summer heat is slightly too much, it is still pretty. Unfortunately I have to abandon the earth-friendly rules as I can't stand the heat, then turning on the air conditioner during mid-day instead of saving electricity. #boo. So I came home early, catching up All Time Low's new single, "I Feel Like Dancing" which already available on iTunes , go get them tigers. They are getting more pop-punk. Speaking of All Time Low, there is a friend of my other friend, whom I got introduced through facebook and did not seem to remember me anyway, has the same music taste like I do. Not being stereotype or such, I find it quite rare and entertaining finding someone who listen exactly the same artists like you do. Well, almost 98,9%, I am familiar with mostly every artists that he put up on his tumblr or twitter. He's a big fan of ATL and I just found out yesterday, we have the same favorite song from Mcfly. I mean, who listens to McFly? probably one out of fifteen. It is just cool to know your double-ganger on music scene.
Anyway, I have been waiting for April somehow. In less than two weeks I am going to face my final exam. My anxiety towards thee, made me lost ounce of sleep. Both in good and worried way. You know the feeling you have when you just hardly can wait for it to come to an end and you are finally going to feel free like the air.
The line pretty much sum up everything.

Aside from the sun, I have set up plans. Lots of it. Ready to launch right after mid of April. I hate to be the spoiler of few, but I am going to tell you as if you'd care, as soon I have got the confirmation.
Meanwhile, keep your feet on the ground and finger cross! See you soon.
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A piece by : Fiya Muiz